Cold Weather

The cold weather came down
Slashed through hope and relief
Reminded us the tyranny of times past
Burdened us with Layers to the last
Pains from within forgotten
Are now once again begotten
Menial tasks of little affection
Now require some distraction
An engineer writing poetry at work
The cold weather came - the system broke

conflicting interests

1) I want to walk around/move around, I don't like sitting in one place
vs
2) I HATE wearing my brace, which I should wear whenever I am moving around

at the moment 2 is winning, and that is why i am bored as hell and posting this to my blog.

Ice

Ice thou art my savior
Twice a day without fail
Part with me not this time
Eradicate this pain of mine
How I await thee in grief
Reminiscing of thy relief

The irony

I will walk into the hospital tomorrow...without any difficulty.... then I'll come out on crutches :(

Dear Farooq & Fatima

This post if for you two....the only two readers of this blog.

Great Minds

The world is full of people trying to figure out the world. Somehow we think we know more than the next guy, or see things differently. stop trying to define/control the world around you, learn to flow with it. We are a part of the world, not the creators.

biomechanics

alhumdulillah I've been fortunate enough to never have had any serious injuries. Last week I sprained my right knee, and haven't been able to put too much weight on it. And it's made me realize things I never noticed before. I never realized how we channel energy from our leg to do simple things like open those big heavy doors at buildings. or how we ground ourselves and use your leg muscles and your knee joint when sweeping or vacuuming. We take a lot for granted and don't notice how small things effect other parts of the body. even when you move around when you're laying down in bed and shift, or move, or adjust your blanket... I noticed I propel myself with my legs...which puts pressure on the knees as well.

Irrationality/rationality of Pain

What is pain, why do we feel it, and when we do feel it, why the hell do we yell?

we all know the first answer, its our body's neurological message to us to say hey something is wrong here, pay attention to me. but why does the body continue to hurt with injuries that you can't do much about other than watch them heal themselves? Why not just an instant feeling, then it fades away once the message has gotten into your head.

That part I don't mind, but the real issue is why do we yell when we feel pain, why does it incapacitate us from doing anything else at the moment. distract us, midstep, from anything...except I suppose if you were in a fight. Maybe that's what it takes to get stupid humans like ourselves to pay attention to the problem. otherwise we'de just dismiss it and continue to aggravate it.

but the yell from pain still doesn't make sense.... do we really need something that dramatic to catch our attention to where we can't do anything except let out a helpless yell? I supopse if we didn't feel pain, we'de torture ourselves and in some wacky way enjoy it. The body's self defense system against itself.

enough rambling... time for work

The World is Hollow

things don't make sense, and probably wont with any amount of thinking.

Relaxed

after a LONG LONG time I finally got to have a nice relaxed saturday morning. Even the weather decided to cooperate, and provided a beautiful breeze. I opened all the windows, lounged around and listened to the Burda al Busiri sung by "The Fez singers"

yupp...nice and relaxing...

Tired

Car Log:

Jan 6th-18th => Mercury Milan (4/5 comfortable leather interior, smooth powerful drive)
Jan 20-25th => Pontiac G6 (3/5 responsive steering, fun drive, didnt feel well made, creekings etc at only 25k miles)
Jan 25-30th => Chevrolet Malibu (1/5 terrible handling, not very powerful)
Jan 30- Feb 15 => Mazda6 (5/5 comfortable seating, powerful sporty drive, good handling)
Feb 17 - now => Sentra (4/5 good handling)

tragic war

from neocons to bin ladins
the world spins
like a basketball
about to hit the wall
nukes and AK47s
all aimed at the heavens
people are killed
innocent blood is spilled
who won?

fortune cookies

some amusing fortune cookies from this week:

"you will be traveling soon and come across a fortune"
"you will be advanced socially, without any special effort"

endless opportunities

never judge an assignment as below you. you'll lose chances to grow in ways you never knew. never assume what you think you like best, is really what you'll enjoy and grow from the most. let life take its path, don't pigeon hole yourself with your preconceived notions. infinite paths present themselves to us, but we turn them away in ignorance, so let your guard down and open your eyes...and mind

hmm this post isn't very coherent but oh well.

LOST

one word description of my day navigating the cary-raleigh-durham areas.

this place is crazy, i'll fill in more later. for now my bed beckons me.